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My will is to write on what I am
willing to write. I force not my fingers
to write the words I do not want to read.
I force not my brain to think the sentence just to seduce the eyes that
is going to read. I write because I do
not do any meditation. The knowledge of
stopping my mind to think is something I have not been taught. I decided to teach it myself – I write. I think of writing so that I think not of
anything else. I look at every letter as
a girl sometime, as a child sometime, as a cloud, as a star, as a new born, as
a teacher and what not. Only few times I
looked those words I write as words.
Never my mind said I am running
out of words because all that it was filled with is just words, all that I
didn’t recite. More than the
conversation with my fellow humans I converse with my mind, I watch and it
dictates. Not all time it is my dictator
sometimes I proclaim the dictatorship and enjoy the difference of opinion
between me and my mind. I love when it
disobeys me. When the thoughts are like slow moving water I stop it with a dam
built inside and redirect it to the canals to flow through. Not all time it is possible that the water
flows in tranquil sometimes it rains heavily and the water rushes to the dam
with its full force. The use of cannels
makes no sense then; it overflows thus avoiding the wreckage in the dam. What
makes one to write is a mystery; the divine code of secret. When that code is broken and the secret is
revealed then that is the day of books; no more books will be published. Not to all the eyes these are words but to
the few, may be to the many, this is just the permutation and combination of
words. Those are the beautiful minds
that calculate searches and researches.
For few these letters jumbled in order makes all sense. They read it with their eyes but what they
look at is not the words but the heart of the finger that wrote. Those were the beautiful hearts. They read,
smile and cry at the words for they know under what emotions those words are
knitted. They know under what pain those
mistake in the sentences are made. To
write is not an art but a science. The
science of stopping the mind to think, the science of redirecting the thoughts
to the way the heart like to flow. To
read is not a science but an art of deciphering the heart of the writer and the
art of understanding the pain of the others wounds. It is the art of falling in
love with the one that has never ever has appeared before their eyes, never
ever spoke into their ears; the real love that everyone is foreseeing for; the
unconditional love. Till that
unconditional, unbridled love exists in this planet there will be hands that
knit the letters into words then into sentence in turn into book that warms the
eyes of the readers. What really is a miracle; the rain of gold from the sky or
the sprinkles of water? Tons of gold dropping from the sky will only create
fear in the hearts but the rain brings happiness. Is it not the rain a miracle! I was searching for bigger things, a great
miracle to happen so that I could pen down until I saw the little finger of a
girl standing before me. I could look at
nothing else but her finger in her foot; so beautifully sculpted. I thought it was a tiny finger but the time I
took to adore the sculpture made me realize that it is of the size of this
universe. The nail it held were polished
and decorated and at the tip of the nail as grown after the coloring so that it looked like a crown of a
princess. She moved it like a wand putting me in trance. The spell that that finger spelled made me
stay awake but in a mesmerizing sleep that nothing else around me existed. Could a little finger can make put me in such
a state! I then realized, understood the meaning of the words miracle. There exist no miracle in the air, it is
inside. Sometimes a little wand like her
finger puts spells to provoke it. The ups and downs of those little finger
where the speed breakers stopping my eyes to go up or down; mesmerization at
its height. Slowly the wand moved from its position and came closer to me. I don't want it to move for I might wake up
from the trance and face the real world.
But it moved, came closer to me, crossed passing me and disappeared.
Nothing could explain that enchanting finger than the words; thus it is here.
Well written. How we start writing is a myestery and the catchment of inspiration is always so abstract..
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