Swamiyee Saranam – 6

 

Swamiyee Saranam Ayyappa!

                Magically 5 weeks passed with ups and downs in thoughts, tests passed, test failed, tests not taken but I still persevered.  Learnings are unlimited everywhere only when you humble yourself and listen and act without ego, all those learnings will reach you – that was the take away for the week.  Being said all about learnings and humility your own mind and brain tests you, shakes your belief and ask you what you believe you is correct or are you in the right path or why are you doing this, so on and so forth.  That is actually a test to check your perseverance.  That is the time when you have to shun yourself from unwanted opinions and keep your ears open and the message will be delivered.

                Who is Swami Ayyappan was discussed all over internet, different flavors of stories and conspiracy.  Should only men go to Sabari mala?  Is the forty-eight days of penance is required to take the pilgrimage? All these questions and different flavors of answers reached you because you have opened up for doubt so negativity follows.  I was sitting outside a temple and from up above a message was delivered – from the speaker over my head in the temple; “you have your own favorite God and religion that doesn’t means other forms are to be not respected.  What has to be understood is that all the other forms of the God you see is your same favorite form of the divinity in a different manifestation form”

                And of course, tell hundred stories of my Swami Ayyappan, ask thousand questions about the austerity but the divine energy is unbridled and above all our understanding.  This divine energy wants us to be humble, simple, truthful, human, generous, compassionate, empathetical at least in these 48 days of austerity and try to live a life of a yogi at least in these days and then start your pilgrimage.  My Guru Swami is younger than me but he knows Swami Ayyappan better, he knows this devotion better, he loves my Swami better than me and most of all my Swami Ayyappan loves him more than he loves Him.  So, being old doesn’t means you are better and younger doesn’t means you cannot be a Guru! And why my Swami loves him more is because whenever I call him Guru Swami, he always says Swami Ayyappan is the only Guru!

                Last year, when it was my first year, I realized that everybody around us considers the first-year devotee very special in fact treats him as the Ayyappan itself which made me humble than the humble me!  And I realized I was not that humble as I was thinking as I was is when two of the old devotees, Guru Swamis prostrated to me back when I touched their feet for blessings!  That is what my Swami Ayyappan had made them – as Ayyappan itself.   That is what is important than the research of who He is or what He is.  Thathwamasi!

Swamiyee Saranam Ayyappa!